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Day 4 - wow I barely had any sleep, was so tired and slept so late.. and I missed the ellen show! :(  ’cause I was sleeping! Anyways I lost a pound so that’s good. 10 more days!! Oh so hungry right now. Gonna get something to drink D:

- 2:08 AM. I should learn to sleep earlier since I have work tomorrow at 3. But it’s okay, it’s not very late and I was expecting to be sleeping at around 4 usually.. which is SO bad for my skin - breaking out. Anyways, because of my period I’ve been really really moody. I got really mad today and broke down and cried for no reason, well I knew it was no reason but everything I kept thinking about made me feel horrible and sad. Kept thinking about how bad and ashamed I felt about myself, and how it was so late but I was hungry and I wanted to eat.. BLAH. PS: New moon was awesome and GO TEAM JACOB <3 .. Sam & Emmett were excruciatingly hot! Sigh, I have a tummyache now : ( So then I broke down and we went to mcdonalds! SO BADDDD! I got the spicy thai salad, it was soooooooooo good. But now I’m really regretting it and kind’ve beating myself up about it. I mean it was 12 AM and I’m eating at mcds.. : (  GR. There goes like 2lbs up the scale tomorrow!!!

Day 3 - how awesome. Today was a productive day, but I’m cramping a lot.. and it’s been over a week. I hope it’ll go away soon. Anyways, I checked the scale today and found out I lost 3lbs, how awesome is that. But I had work today so I couldn’t get my tea, and I’ll be drinking it about now. Omg, I wonder if there’s any tickets for tomorrow to watch TWILIGHT <3  LOL I don’t like the book but the first movie wasn’t bad. Taylor Lautner, Robert Pattinson and Kellan Lutz YUM. NTS: Paulina owes me $195 for the rocks & bb gun.

Day 2, was such a hard day. I was extremely tired all day, all I wanted to do was sleep. I actually did get a lot of sleep today, a lot of random naps throughout the day. Was really craving for solids but I stayed away from it in the end, I need to buy a lot of gum soon to chew. Went shopping and got some new sweats and Paulina her christmas present (R&Rs) I’m gonna get my gold R’s during Christmas. Babe said  he’s gonna bring me to the adoption center and we’ll get me a guinea pig and Paulina can get one for herself too. Hopefully we can find two that bond really well together hehe. Then they can be friends and play with the bunny : ) Anyways, gonna get the rest of the lemonade and drink up!

Yeah, I actually decided to do the cleanse, and I’m actually feeling more energized than I usually do, which is really weird. Today is day 1. I’m feeling really tired when I sit down, but once I’m up, I’m always looking for things to do around the house like ironing, washing the dishes, cleaning the floors.. you name it. From reading what other people have blogged about it, it seems that in the end their eating habits have changed and they felt so much lighter in their step and feel more happier and energized.. Hoping for the same results! First three days are usually the hardest so I think I’m doing quite well since I’m not hungry. Everyone’s been eating so much junk food around me, Lynette got cotton candy and her and my sister made a batch of cookies, but I said no anyways : ) .. yes, I know someone will probably say, it’s not healthy and it’s a fad but I know that and I’m honestly doing it more to clean out my system than because of the weight loss. I feel all lazy and I guess ‘dirty’ inside.. D: hopefully this makes that feeling go away.

Oh gosh, I haven’t wrote anything on here in so long, feels forever. Been too busy with work.. it’s ridiculous. Oh ho ho, going to be a rough 7 days from now on and we’ll see what happens. States on Dec 6, got a bit of work to do : )

So I had my workout again today, woot, thank goodness I’ve been having a lot more time for ME! Wasted 45 minutes of my life driving around looking for a school that was right there.. YUCK, I noticed my Danone silhouette 0+ yogurt, is sweetened with splenda! Now I have to eat it .. I do not support splenda, I mean, I like the idea that it allows diabetics to enjoy the foods they can. I just really don’t like the idea that all these chemicals go into it.. I’d rather just have my vanilla yogurt plain vanilla flavoured, not additives. I thought this wasn’t the one with it, but guess I was wrong. I got the dvd, it came into the mail; my visa also came in after awhile from the last incident and fraud. I really don’t like the taste of this yogurt, next time I’m going to buy my activia that I set out for, why did my cheapness get in the way! LOL grr, lean cuisine is pretty good. PS: I feel a little discouraged because I haven’t gone down the scale like I used to before.. it just sticks to 132 and never moves 1lb lower. This is so saddening to see : (

So today was a great day, once again Lynette came over so early in the morning waking me up from the little sleep I had. We sat there and watched a lot of tv pretty much, wasting our time away. I fell asleep and then Duy came over and brought me cultures - yum! I ate the fruit salad and it was ALRIGHT, I could’ve made better at home.. the orange was so sour and old.. and the melon and cantaloupe were cut so close to the edges. My favourite was the pasta salad that I took my sweet time eating.. and the grilled chicken wrap was so good. I can live eating like that all the time. But I’d rather incorporate some yogurt or no-fat frozen yogurt from yogen fruz! The no-fat fro yo is loveeeee! I’m salivating just thinking about it hehe. Then they wanted to eat ice cream! NOOOOO. Dairy Queen TWICE in the same week.. so bad. The temptation is all around to, it’s just so hard to get away from it. I’d rather stick at home or go to walmart or no frills to buy the food and cook it at home, it would taste so much better plus there would be left overs : ) Plus Duy and I did pilates today haha it was so funny watching him try to keep up with the video. He pretty much kept up for 15 minutes then gave up and watched me do it, I love it, feels so relaxing and satisfying after.

Yes, I hit the treadmill today after the longest time. It felt weird at first and once I got off I was totally dizzy, gave me a headache. I didn’t go out today! But lynette brought timbits over to eat : ( oh well, got a lot of my homework and sleeping done. I’m totally wiped out and tired. I actually cleaned up my bathroom very thoroughly today! It looks super clean, like Mr.Clean was here haha. So I found out boyfriend might be moving, hopefully I won’t get a little sad and binge eat : (  cause that definitely won’t be good at all ..

Hard day today. I got a chance to work out this morning so that was good, but it was kind’ve wasted when everyone else wants to go and eat. It can get so darn harder when you’re around people who always want to go out and eat.. I must be able to say NO, noooooooo, I do not want to go out and eat. But yes, the treadmill is back up so I can start my walking/running routines again. Yay for long plugs!

More work today and no time to work out, ugh. I do it tomorrow. I’m gonna start the master cleanse soon enough, so I can lose some weight before I buy new clothes : ) yay. So tired and too lazy to do anything right now. Just wanted to blog about this.. ps: Twilight is coming out, woot. The movie looks great and Taylor Lautner is so hot.